After being haunted by memories both good and bad, I was surrounded by familiar things that were once long forgotten and had been stored away.
I felt very overwhelmed by emotion and it blindsided me. Maybe it was the music I was listening to, maybe it was the thoughts in my head, but wow, this was a pretty intense experience for me.
Long ago these items were put away with a longing in my heart. Will I ever see these items again? Would I even want to? Part of me was also put aside and shut away for so long. Things that seemed precious to me at the time, and that made my heart cry as they were banished away.
Creations that were perhaps not for that time at all. Beautiful designs that I spent years creating. All of my studies, my time and effort, my creative output all removed from my view for decades...ages it seems.
Lately, these boxes of long lost creations have been calling out to me. "Open me." The time is now. The time has come.
Truly, I am blown away by this realization.
It's true that I didn't know what I would find in the boxes after all these years. So many items were sold hastily or given away before they were stored up. What remains would I find in the boxes?
Memories, a fleeting thought, a dream? My dreams, my vision, what I had been working on and what I had created.
They were such a significant part of me back then!...and now...?
Now they are being brought to the light. They have reawakened me and have set me on a new path.
I'm surrounded by darkness and yet I'm so comforted to be amongst my long lost cherished creations.
This particular series of boxes were filled with silk black dresses, fabrics and trims. The silhouettes were experimental at the time they were packed away. Beautiful dresses, a sample here, a half completed dress there, vintage fabrics and trims.
It's dark, tres noir, yor. And I love it all. Even though it is very dark, there is a lightness behind it. Maybe because the fabric is lightweight, sheer, semi sheer, lace, and made with natural fibers, it doesn't feel heavy. It brings me back to my roots as a designer. It feels like light is breaking through the darkness.